I've started a few different posts and haven't been able to finish. It's a pattern I've been going through a lot lately--stopping and starting and getting very little done. I realized that my adrenals are very tired--I was starting to undergo a pattern familiar from my late 20s, when I would be tired all day long, culminating in a bone-deep exhaustion between 4 and 6pm, and then I'd get a second wind at about 10pm and be bouncing off the walls.
Anyway, I'm trying to take it a little easier. And no matter how hard we work, or not, and no matter how stressed we get--or not--life will continue to support us with the amount of abundance we subconsciously feel we deserve. As I allow myself to get more support, life reflects it with increasing my abundance.
I applied for a job to do bodywork at senior homes, and I didn't get it. But my husband finally has come through with sending me a little child support for the first time in a year. If he continues this consistently, it'll be such a boon in terms of peace of mind I can't even begin to express it. It's not just the money--it's about an easing of karma, a healing of a rift of trust. I don't believe that our ability to forgive others is ever contingent upon another's behavior, but sometimes when you see someone start to be considerate, you know that your efforts to forgive have perhaps started to work.
I ghostwrote a bunch of stories for someone who disappeared without paying me and then started publishing said stories on Amazon. But with a couple of emails, Amazon's copyright department has agreed to take these stories down, and I'll be able to self-publish them now with very little effort. It feels good to take a frustrating situation and see it as a boon, somehow.
I have an Amazon author page now.
I like this picture:
It's from bigstockphotos, where I'm perusing stock photos for covers for the erotic ebooks I'll shortly self-publish.
Time to take a breath...